"I..." She starts, frowning slightly as the girl considered Ward's words. "I know it can be dangerous. I'm just... the potential consequences, if I were to lose control of it... it's better to keep it locked within for now." She pauses, before blinking and bringing her hands up to wave in front of her. "O-oh, not like I don't ever use it! I had to get here somehow, after all! I just don't want to use it willynilly and all." The potential to accidentally hurt Ward or anyone else who happened to be nearby was too great, and if she caused to big of a disturbance, she might make some of the kais here really cranky! Which just wouldn't do. She was a guest, after all, and had to act like one. Yet as they spoke, it was as if her magic knew it was being talked about, creeping forward at the back of the girl's mind, whispering promises she couldn't understand at the back of her mind, so quietly she didn't know what it said, and yet enough to... frighten her. As Phakk knew that this was as much a part of herself as any other.
So when he moved onto the mortals again she couldn't help but let out a tiny sigh of relief, nodding along with what he had to say on the subject. "That does at least seem more... nuanced than my family's viewpoint. Even if I'm pretty certain it's less a game of pure chance and more a single decision made by them that chooses one of the many branching paths..." Where was she getting this from? Phakk had no experience with others yet... A small huff leaves the girl yet agai, and she kicks her legs idly. "While I get why it's important that they are... I wish things weren't so complicated."
His hand raised confidently and so fast it would have seemed if not for their friendly conversation that he might strike he rather suddenly. His arm outstretched and within a fraction of a moment it stopped with a single finger pointed towards her. Trying to mimic her earlier action, he poked her nose, and as quickly as he had moved he retracted his arm and nodded as if pleased with himself.
"I went and did what I didn't intend and ended up lecturing you, my apologies. You know you better than I do, so I hope I wasn't pushing too hard. I try so hard to help and I worry so much about the balance of things that sometimes I push where it isn't always welcome. I'm still working on it. You've been kind thus far, so my first instinct is to try and help without taking action, if that makes any sense whatsoever."
Emotion slipped out once more as his face showed clear signs of embarrassment. Rubbing the back of his neck he caught himself and cleared his throat loudly, turning around for a moment and adjusting his clothes before turning back with his natural straight face.
"I'm sure you are right to a degree. I'd like to think I am as well, but I have thousands of more years to go in this body at least, so I'm sure my views on many things will change and reshape. Speaking of changing and reshaping, we should speak more on training in the future if you wouldn't mind. I know a we can train, and a method to do so safely away from others. When the time is right. This planet is likely a bad idea, as is Earth if we want to go all out I would think."
As she was booped, Phakk couldn't help but giggle and wiggle her nose a little, going cross eyed as she peered at his digit. stepping back a little, she poked her tongue out at him, before her smile widens and the shinjin waves off his apology. "Oh! No, it's okay! I appreciate the advice, really! And I know you mean well. I just... don't think that my magic is something to tamper or mess with if I can help it. But I'll get used to it. Eventually. It'll just take some time." Phakk does her best to reassure ward, widening her grin a little. "And training does sound nice! I... don't really like getting h-hurt, but maybe we can make a day out of i9ti? First video games, and then afterward we can go to somewhere nearby in space and spar there?" Phakk definitely wouldn't want to risk going 'all out while on a populated planet. What if some poor being happened across them and got hurt? She wasn't sure she'd be able to forgive herself!
"Do you do anything for fun, by the way, Ward? We've talked about what I like, but you've just said you maintain balance. Do you... have any hobbies? O-or passions beyond that? N-n-not to say balance isn't good! I-i just meant... um..."2 The girl trails off, embarrassment plain as she managed to screw up her own words again. She just wanted to know what he liked, so they could do that too...
"I think I can go along with that. We can try your games first, then try out some training after."
Tapping at his chin, he looked into the distance, surprised no one else had come to meet or greet them by now given Phakk's energy alone, but as he knew too well, not all Shinjin were attentive. There was a reason so many as of late could come and go freely. Unless there was an immediate danger, which there rarely was given their location, the Shinjin that lived here usually left each other alone unless there was some sort of class or training happening.
"I hope you aren't disappointed that no one else showed up but me. I know I'm far from the most exciting or entertaining being in the known universe. My social skills are below par for most mortals I would venture a guess. I spend a lot of time by myself training, meditating, studying, a combination of all three. What I consider fun is likely different than the normal definition. I don't have a set schedule of things to do, so there isn't a time for leisure as I enjoy my studies as much as my training. I don't spend time with games as of late."
It likely sounded boring, doing nothing but reading and training, but Ward had so much he wanted to know, and he truly enjoyed learning. He could understand from the outside how it would look like a strange existence, but he felt doing so could help if he ever had his name called for the position of Kai.
"As of late I've been keeping busy more so as there was a lottery not long ago, less than a year ago in fact. For the second time being passed up gave me a sense of lacking purpose as being a Kai has always been my goal. My hobby has been preparing for the day I was certain it would happen, but, yet again it didn't. So I've felt lost, and it's why I've been leaving more, trying to experience more than I have been choosing to. I'll admit it's been difficult in a lot of ways for a lot of reasons."
"O-oh, I think you've been g-g-great company!" Phakk reassures the other shinjin, waving a hand dismissively, albeit also awkwardly. "I-in truth, I p-prefer that only you c-came. If a lot of people h-h-had shown up, i'd probably be... pretty scared." Crowds were hardly the incredibly shy Shinji's specialty, after all, and she knew that her magic and lingering effects of Carcear might be... shocking to some. "P-plus, we seem t-to be getting along well! It's nice t-t-to make a friend of my own." As opposed to simply being put with people. It was... a good change of pace, she decided. However, his next words did bring the girl to something of a pause, as she frowns at him.
"But... why would you feel aimless?" She asks, before blinking and shaking her head. "O-oh, sorry! I didn't mean it in a judgemental way! I just... why train to be a Kai if it's specifically just a roll of the die, with no bearing of actual skill?" As admirable as it was that he was attempting to better himself, the idea of randomly picking one's leaders was still an... odd one to Phakk, who carried an unconscious belief in the concept of superiority. "What about... well, have you thought of trying to find a... a hobby? L-like, well, I-i um... I have one! I like to make costumes! I've been working on one of a person from one of my games, a-and I'm super duper proud of it." It had taken her a good few years... she thought... but point is it was almost done! Just the mention of her developing suit had the girl smiling happily, humming to herself.
"I still can't fully explain what it was about you showing up that drew me here, but I'm glad I showed up all the same. Not all Shinjin are as understanding as I am, and there are definitely some that would react negatively to your presence here."
There was a chance that Ward being here with her was enough to keep others away assuming he had the situation handled if there was one, especially given no fighting had taken place. Even without anyone showing up it was almost certain that at least a few were watching from somewhere even if they weren't aware of the conversations taking place. It was also simply easier to talk and perhaps make a friend without others around as well given the topics of discussion.
"I rarely have any problems with a specific individual, but I also rarely get along with people. I tend to stay at a neutral stance with people as even with the years spent around each other, not all Shinjin get along well. We respect one another but there are cliques at best. Not to say every Shinjin is antisocial as that's far from the truth, but most here keep to themselves so I don't talk to them openly often unless we need something from one another."
The table covered in food seemed to be more in the way now than anything, and neither were too interested in it anymore to keep it around. Ward waved it away as it disappeared back into the seeming nothingness it came from, leaving on the two of them and the chair he had created earlier. His mind wandered, even as she spoke, repeating her question in his mind that was similar to one he had asked himself many times over.
"Because it's what we do. It's important. If I was chosen and I wasn't ready it could cause a lot of problems. Without that goal, I'm not sure what I am. I'm not trying to suggest I feel worthless, but I have no goal to work towards otherwise. After hundreds of years you get into habits on top of habits, and routines aren't just routines anymore. It's hard to break them and the mindsets that come with them, even if I'm aware of them. I wouldn't know where to start finding something else I'd want to do. Perhaps visiting more places in the mortal realm will help that. You alone have already given me much to think about for example."
"O-oh. Well... I guess it's a good thing, then?" Phakk tries, frowning a little at the thought. She might have been attacked...? Why? Just for showing up? Until just previously, the girl hadn't even been sure as to what this place was. As much as she clearly liked Ward, the more she heard about the rest of her.. their... people, the more questions and concerns the girl had. It just seemed... Off. In a way very similar to Darastras, actually. Just very much the other side of a coin of supposed superiority. Then again, she was basing this all off of one person's descriptions, and obviously Ward himself was good, so why couldn't the others be? "I... see."2 She murmurs, thinking. This all sounded oddly... familiar. Which wouldn't be out of place were it not for the fact that Phakk hadn't ever interacted with other people for a very, very long time. Yet... the more she spoke with Ward, the stronger that sense of déjà vu grew. Had she... why did...
Blinking, the girl loses her train of thought and shakes her head. Come on Phakk! Focus on the now. She blinked as the table went poof, feeling a small pang of sadness despite not having eaten from it and being full. She liked food, okay? "Well... if there's a chance that some Shinjin aren't ready, picking things by chance definitely isn't going to help." She didn't seem to be moving past that any time soon. "But I suppose that... what if you went on a journey? Inn games, whenever the hero feels down or stuck in a rut, they just set out! They find friends, a-and villains, and they grow through their trials. Plus, th-that way, you'd be able to use some... r-real world... experience?" She trails off near the end, cringing both out of fear of reprisal and the fact that she was the last person to talk to about 'real world experience'.
Talking to Phakk pulled emotions, memories, and questions to the surface of his mind that had bot actively and passively been pushed down over the years. There was a point that what he was doing and how he addressed things was normal when even in the past he questioned almost as much as Phakk had to him. He could tell there was more she wanted to say behind the looked she was giving, and there was a real chance he had already asked them to himself. Even living here his whole life and dealing with this way of life it drew questions the more he learned of his own people. It was normalized because it was the life he was born into, but so much of it was different than everything he saw of every other race, and he had always been told and told himself it was part of being a Shinjin.
"I wish I knew what to say to that, but I understand your reservations on the idea. I've had my moments of questioning things, but this is how it has been long before either of us were a sprout on the Tree of the Worlds. It seems to have worked for those before as things have gone the way they've gone with few even knowing what our people are for better or worse, so I question things, but I also accept them."
Both hands came up to his face and interlaced, leaving him in a contemplative state and stance for a moment.
"I think that's what I'm taking a step towards doing in a way. Perhaps I wasn't looking at it that way, but I did leave the planet in the hopes of moving out into the mortal realm and experiencing things. There is only so much I can learn staying here and reading. I still dream of being a Kai some day, but who can say I won't find another goal out there in the other part of the universe."
"Just because you spent a long time making a mistake, doesn't mean you should keep it." Phakk says, wisely not mentioning that she saw that on an earthling meme. "B-but I guess you'd be right. Y-y-you know a lot more than me about this, a-after all." Oh, she didn't want to assume anything! The girl was well aware that she was currently at a pretty massive disadvantage in terms of even general knowledge, despite her inexplicable understanding of some things she had no right to know. Yet despite her awkwardness and fear, as War continued talking, her smile would return and she would nod to him. "W-well, i'm glad then! If you c-can find something out there in the big, wide universe, i'm sure that by the time you end up being a Kai you'll be the best of them all!" He was so nice to her, after all!
"J-just um.., I suppose try n-not to forget your roots?" From what she had been told by Darastras, the majority of the Shinjin populace was... lazy at best, when it came to certain things. "I.. Sorry. But i'[m absolutely sure you'll be a Kai one day!" It just seemed to be how thigs worked, and despite their relatively short meeting, Phakk could see something in Ward. There was a strength to his words, one that belied a steel core, beneath everything else. "I-if you want, I can... t-text you if I find anything? Um... wait. Do you have a phone?" The amount of will required for her to say that with a straight face and not explode in a blush would have put even the most determined Earthling to shame, as Phakk vibrated on the spot.
His first instinct was to raise his hand and declare indignantly how he didn't believe all these years involved making a mistake, but he was quick to stop himself. Ward was stubborn in plenty of situations, but he had the empathy and understanding to know when someone was trying to be helpful and knew enough that she meant well.
"I know a lot, but not nearly enough. Perhaps you are right to an extent."
What was out there for him and why did it take him this long to finally move past comfort and habits. The chances of him becoming a Kai truly were low, but his whole life had been about training and learning and little else up to this point. There was a part of him that knew that was unlikely to change, but perhaps he could expand on both in ways he hadn't allowed himself to up till now.
"Maybe I just need to meet more people like you. Maybe that's not possible though given what you are. I think you being whatever it is you truly are has opened my eyes a bit in this conversation, given me a different perspective a mortal simply couldn't. Maybe there is something greater out there that I haven't seen or learned of yet."
There was a long pause and a stare as if he was trying to decipher what she had just said and asked of him, but the neurons weren't quite firing.
"I don't know what most of that meant, but if you are trying to ask about contact methods, that's one I'm unsure of. Usually when I need to speak to someone I just do it. I can speak to anyone in Otherworld right now if I'm aware of them, though it's not the traditional speech mortals think of, but more reaching out direction with my mind. I would think it would work in similar ways if I were in the mortal realm reaching out to anyone there as well. I'm not sure if you are able to do the same as not all Shinjin can."
"O-oh! Well... I'm glad to be of service!" Phakk blinks, before a smile blossoms on her face and she embarrassedly scratches at a cheek, looking to the grassy ground, digging her toes into it in an attempt to lessen some of the happy embarrassment. of course, this did fade a little when he practically said he didn't have a phone. "O-oh... well that's not the same at aaaaallll-" She complains happily, hopping from toe to toe. "How can I send you funny cat pics and stuff if you don't have a phone? Wait, how about I just-" She reaches into her pocket, before pulling out one of her own. Fiddling with it for a bit, she sticks her tongue out in concentration. Its screen shuttered black, before booting up again, and she offers it to him. "Here! I reset it to the basics, and you're smart enough to figure it out! I'll just buy a new one, and I already know this one's number!" Evidently channelling her inner Bobbi, she wouldn't take no for an answer.
"I'm n-not sure if it'll work between dimensions, but it has intergalactic cable! So... whenever you're in the mortal realm, and wanna talk, you just go to either this-" She points at the call button. "Or this, if you don't want to speak but wish to send a super fast letter!" This time, the one for text messages. "I'll give you a message, which is the second one, when I get my own phone. Then you just need to respond, and we'll be good!" She was definitely overestimating his inherent ability to work with technology, but that was fine. Ward was smart, he'd figure it out eventually. "Plus if you need a practical reason, you could call me for something you don't want others hearing! ...I-if telepathy can be heard by others."
"I don't know what a cat pic is, but I can assume. I'm still not fully sure what a phone is either, but once more assuming given the context it's a means of communication, yes?"
This was when his complete lack of knowledge about specifics of the mortal realm would shine through. For all he knew about their race and the intricacies of Otherworld's structures, he was clueless to what some might find equally obvious about mortals. His eyes narrowed to concentrate them on what she was holding out to him, staring at it for a long moment before taking it and looking it over.
"I won't pretend to understand what this is, but I appreciate the gesture all the same. I will, hm..."
Looking down he wasn't sure where to store it as he was afraid of losing or breaking it, until finally sliding it inside of his top.
"I'll keep it there and hope I have any idea what to do with it later. This will take some getting used to. We don't tend to use such technology here, and more often magic or more mundane ways of doing things. Telepathy cannot be heard by others however if that is a reason you'd be concerned with its use. Imagine my voice but it transmitting directly into your thoughts. I can't read your mind or anything quite so intrusive so don't worry, it's simply a means of mental communication over extremely long distances potentially."
Waving a hand to the side he made the chair she was sitting in before disappear, and in its place was what looked like a coat rack. Putting both his palms together he slowly pulled them a part with what looked like a struggle, as barely visible energy formed between his fingers, and clothing began to appear on the rack.
"I have nothing to share quite like this technology you've shared, but perhaps I can give you something with meaning to me all the same. These are traditional Shinjin clothes similar to what I wear. I wasn't sure what color you like, so I went with something to match your hair color."
Phakk couldn't help but look a little amused as he slid her former phone into his top, the girl blinking and lips curling for a moment into a bemused smile, before shaking her head to clear whatever she had been thinking and giving her new friend a nod. "Trust me, it's sooooo much better! You don't just make calls, you can also talk without any pressure of immediate reaction, or look at new videos that are funny or cool, or play games, or-" She pauses. "Oh. Sorry. Didn't mean to go on a tangent there. Just... they're cool. And I think you'll like it when you're out there exploring the galaxies~" She moves to boop his nose again, before glancing around. It'd help with those travel times, for sure, and that alone made her happy to be able to help.
It was as she was glancing around that she noticed the coat rack, initially jumping in surprise before Ward spoke, for a moment shocked. Glancing back at him, she quickly and two and two together, lightly touching the clothing as it appeared. "Woah..." She whispers, looking at the rack as it materialised. "This is... so cool!" She turns back to the other Shinjin, clapping her hands, admiration clear on her face. "I love them! They look so amazing!" She could go with a whole bunch of costumes now! And they were just good to wear! Oh! Oh! She would need to show Bobbi. She made her way along the rack o clothing reaching out to touch them some more, before retracting her hand just before contact and looking back at Ward. "A-are you sure it's okay for me to have them?"
There was clearly much that Ward had missed out on all these years, and it was surreal thinking about what was likely a simple technology to Phakk but foreign to Ward. Video games, texting, even types of food were over his head during their conversation and it made him realize just how much there was to look forward to experiencing, even if from afar in the mortal realm. It made him wonder if anything he had told Phakk made her feel the same coming to his home and being told more about their race and showing off his magic. They were in a lot of ways opposites despite having so much in common at their core.
"I assume this action of touching noses is a friendly gesture yes? I realize I should have asked before doing so earlier. For all I know we are married now."
Ward let out a laugh that was likely both surprising and a bit awkward sounding given how little he did so and how near stoic he tended to be.
"That was a joke. I don't know you well enough, and Shinjin don't have such relationships."
His demeanor returned to a calm and quiet one as if the outburst never occurred. She however had enough emotion and personality for the both of them, and the way she reacted to his gift only accentuated that fact. Her surprise, but more so her joy filled him with warmth as he watched her reaction, nodding to her and motioning as if giving her permission to do with it as she wanted.
"It's yours. These are basic clothes, but I thought the gesture would be appreciated. This is what Shinjin wear, and regardless of your origins, you are still a Shinjin from what I've gathered. Consider it a gift from one Shinjin to another. You've given me a gift and enlightening conversation, so it only seems fair."
While it was a joke, and she did giggle at his comment, Phakk is not a social butterfly by any stretch of the word and his comment did have her explode in a blush, even as she did her best to keep her voice level. "Ha-. Haha. Haaaahahaha. N-n-no. It's j-j-just a th-thing my sis-sister showed m-me. It's meant t-to show f-f-fondness." She manages to get out. Don't hyperventilate. It's fine. Oh gods, did she overstep her boundaries?? AAaaaaaa- She quickly buried herself in the new clothing, mostly using it to serve as a distraction from the sheer embarrassment as the woman hid her face behind the rack of styles. Quickly, however, she did forget as the clothes took up more and more of her time. While they all carried the same sort of air around them, one that she could reasonably say matched Ward's own, they each had their own little unique twists and takes on the apparent Shinjin style and she was so there for it!
Plucking a few off the rack, Phakk holds up up against herself, humming. This one was good! Might need a few trims, but it was definitely rather nice. "Th-thank you, a-again! These are so nice. E-even if... I don't think I can carry all of them." While there weren't comparatively many articles of clothing, it wasn't as if Phakk was physically strong, and she was of slight frame. Her arms weren't very long and she knew she would definitely struggle to keep a hold off the clothing. Maybe Ward to conjure up a bag or something? Th-then again, she didn't want to ask him and be a bother..