Post by Gira on Mar 9, 2024 23:10:15 GMT -5
Gira had made her way south, out of Kyotei Fortress and the Northern Scar, to settle in the Guru's Forest for the day. The young Saiyan had recently fallen victim to a series of unfortunate events that led to her doubting everything. Her friendships both new and old, her ability to lead the Saiyans, and most of all, the entire reason she was even fighting. A lot of Saiyans didn't need to think about that. To them, combat was simply a way of life and that was all the reasoning that was required. Gira was never like that, though. She loved fighting, and when it was done for fun, that was all the reasoning she needed.
But the battles she faced recently-- and the battles to come in the near future-- were not the fun sort. It had been a very long time since she fought for the thrill of it, with no worries about the future weighing down her heart. The closest was her spar with Ticoga, and even that was a bittersweet affair since she knew that they would be fighting for the future of the Mazoku soon... but what future would that even be? She didn't want to be caught up in the endless conflicts of galactic politics, not when the players were some of her closest and oldest friends... and here recently, she wondered if the Mazoku of today was the Mazoku she even joined in the first place. Normally, she'd ask her sensei for his advice, but... that was no longer possible. That realization hitting her felt like a knife in the heart. Apparently, being a Super Saiyan didn't save you from emotional injury. If only that were so.
"Sensei, I don't know what to do. I'm so lost. Things were easier when I could just ask for your advice." But now, all she had from Gandigan in the form of advice were the lessons he taught her... and she struggled to apply them to this situation.
"You must be pretty disappointed, huh? Can't even stand on my own two feet. Typical Gira." She chuckled darkly and tossed a stone into a nearby pond. The young warrior couldn't help but feel like her sensei would be ashamed to see her like this... but she just couldn't help it.
"I tried, sensei. I really did. I'm sorry. So... i'm so sorry." As the feelings began to take over her, Gira had either two choices; scream or cry. She had done enough crying lately to exhaust her, so she picked the former option. Dropping to her knees, Gira let out a heart wrenching scream of pure emotional agony that echoed through the forest, causing nearby birds to flee their perches at the sudden clamor.
Unfortunately for her, that wasn't enough to quell the sadness and grief, and the tears began flowing. She punched the ground over and over again as she sobbed, creating an increasingly large crater with each blow until she had finally had enough, collapsing into the crater that was now big enough for her to comfortably lie in, sniffling as she curled up into as tight of a ball as she could manage.
"I was stupid to think I could actually make a difference. Zuqetta was right. I'm not worthy to be Queen. I'm just some pampered Earth girl with childish dreams." Not an exact quote, but close enough for Gira right now.
"I've just been playing pretend this entire time. Like a stupid kid." She whispered bitterly as she buried her face in the dirt and bit her lip to stop herself from crying again.
"Dammit... why did I ever leave Earth in the first place?" She sat up in the crater, most of her face and hands covered in dirt as she lifted her gaze towards the sky, in the direction of Earth. She wiped her eyes and nose on the shoulder of her gi before standing up, shakily walking over to the pond and beginning to wash her hands.
TWC: 648
Power Level: 123,000 (Base Form)
Hit Points
▰▰▰▰▰▰▰▰▰▰ 270%
Ki Points
▰▰▰▰▰▰ 6 / 6
Momentum Points
▰▰▰▰▰▰ 0 / 6
Resources
Sparking (1 / 1)
Saiyan Pride (OFF)
Antisense (OFF)
Burning Ki (1 / 1)
ACTIONS
Gira cries a lot and beats herself up! Turn end.
But the battles she faced recently-- and the battles to come in the near future-- were not the fun sort. It had been a very long time since she fought for the thrill of it, with no worries about the future weighing down her heart. The closest was her spar with Ticoga, and even that was a bittersweet affair since she knew that they would be fighting for the future of the Mazoku soon... but what future would that even be? She didn't want to be caught up in the endless conflicts of galactic politics, not when the players were some of her closest and oldest friends... and here recently, she wondered if the Mazoku of today was the Mazoku she even joined in the first place. Normally, she'd ask her sensei for his advice, but... that was no longer possible. That realization hitting her felt like a knife in the heart. Apparently, being a Super Saiyan didn't save you from emotional injury. If only that were so.
"Sensei, I don't know what to do. I'm so lost. Things were easier when I could just ask for your advice." But now, all she had from Gandigan in the form of advice were the lessons he taught her... and she struggled to apply them to this situation.
"You must be pretty disappointed, huh? Can't even stand on my own two feet. Typical Gira." She chuckled darkly and tossed a stone into a nearby pond. The young warrior couldn't help but feel like her sensei would be ashamed to see her like this... but she just couldn't help it.
"I tried, sensei. I really did. I'm sorry. So... i'm so sorry." As the feelings began to take over her, Gira had either two choices; scream or cry. She had done enough crying lately to exhaust her, so she picked the former option. Dropping to her knees, Gira let out a heart wrenching scream of pure emotional agony that echoed through the forest, causing nearby birds to flee their perches at the sudden clamor.
Unfortunately for her, that wasn't enough to quell the sadness and grief, and the tears began flowing. She punched the ground over and over again as she sobbed, creating an increasingly large crater with each blow until she had finally had enough, collapsing into the crater that was now big enough for her to comfortably lie in, sniffling as she curled up into as tight of a ball as she could manage.
"I was stupid to think I could actually make a difference. Zuqetta was right. I'm not worthy to be Queen. I'm just some pampered Earth girl with childish dreams." Not an exact quote, but close enough for Gira right now.
"I've just been playing pretend this entire time. Like a stupid kid." She whispered bitterly as she buried her face in the dirt and bit her lip to stop herself from crying again.
"Dammit... why did I ever leave Earth in the first place?" She sat up in the crater, most of her face and hands covered in dirt as she lifted her gaze towards the sky, in the direction of Earth. She wiped her eyes and nose on the shoulder of her gi before standing up, shakily walking over to the pond and beginning to wash her hands.
TWC: 648
Power Level: 123,000 (Base Form)
Hit Points
▰▰▰▰▰▰▰▰▰▰ 270%
Ki Points
▰▰▰▰▰▰ 6 / 6
Momentum Points
▰▰▰▰▰▰ 0 / 6
Resources
Sparking (1 / 1)
Saiyan Pride (OFF)
Antisense (OFF)
Burning Ki (1 / 1)
ACTIONS
Gira cries a lot and beats herself up! Turn end.